Hyperveridical

LYRICS

It all went to hell:

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Someone I Can Trust:

I was falling into the dark, alone
Scared to hold on to a spark of hope
Barely keeping my head above the waters of an infinite unknown
My rising ocean of emotion
Provokes internal commotion
Cause there's a door that I'd rather have left unopened
So I hid in the silence
Which perpetuated the violence
In my head, I was fighting
And searching around for the lighting
I know I come across as desperate
But no one's asking these questions
I'm terrified of the end
And I've been telling you all of this because

I'm told I can come off as cold
Like the light in my soul's been hidden
Somewhere down below
I wish I could be bold
But the people I've known
Don't seem like they understand
The fight I'm in with the time we waste away
So though you say I'm not alone
Just know that I might need some time
I'm just trying to find out if you're someone I can trust
Someone I can trust
Someone I can trust

When I saw your name on the friend selection
Deceptions entered into my mind
A sense of defensiveness left unattended
I hope that you know I'm desperate
Cause no one's answering my questions
I'm terrified of the end
And I'm telling you all of this because
On the day we met, my attention directed itself to the threat
Of opening a chest that I've always kept under lock and key
Taunting the thought, you sought after me with subtle sincerity, scaring me
Then I asked you what your name was
And you said that it was Eilikrinís
But I could call you Eilikrin for short
It's just a syllable less, but time is too precious to be wasted
On two letters that don't even need to be said
When we're spending all of our breath on pretending we've reached perfection
If deception is even in the air we breathe
I must admit that I've been living so terribly
Because I just did not believe
There was anyone here like me
But you seem like you see the world a different way
And maybe if we look together
We could find a way to change it

But I have never known
Someone like this
And it's hard to believe
That your soul exists
And I've seen things
In the darkest dreams
That would make you scream
And it's hard to believe anything at all
At all

And I'm told I can come off cold
(I feel so cold)
I'm told I can come off as cold
(I FEEL SO COLD)

Because I'm told I can come off as cold
Like the light in my soul's been hidden
Somewhere down below
I wish I could be bold
But the people I've known
Don't seem like they understand
The fight I'm in with the time we waste away
Twenty though you say I'm not alone
Just know that I might need some time
I'm just trying to find out if you're someone I can trust
Someone I can trust
Someone I can trust

The Madness:

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Growing Distant:

If only it was normal
To know someone like this
Maybe I wouldn't be afraid
I don't know why I must consider this
But I get overwhelmed
Just at the thought
That someday you could walk away
It terrifies me just thinking that something's changing
Since nothing here is familiar
It's all so new and also maybe
If you could find a way
To get past whatever pain is keeping you
From living up to your name
Estranging you from me
Then maybe both our eyes could open up
To read and see the truth of the illusion here
(You're growing distant)

But I trust you when you say it's only for the best
I'll keep my heart attached
I know that you'll be coming back
When your world falls apart
I know you I'm sure this is only for a moment
You'll see through the act
And find me waiting here
And I know you've been growing distant
And though I want to know why
I know you need some time
So I'll be waiting here
Until your brain is clear
I'll see you in a little while, my friend

(Dear Eilikrinís)
If only we were normal
And never spoke a word
Maybe I wouldn't be surprised
I thought you said you knew the reason why we hide
But now I'm overwhelmed
Just at the thought
That you've been misled by
Those very lies
You swore to always fight
(Dear Eilikrinís)
It terrifies me just thinking that something's different
You promised you would always listen to reason
And together we would uncover the truth
And glisten in the light that it would provide
Do you remember when I said that
As long as all the pieces of our hearts stay open
We can remain, Outspoken
And no one can take that away
But what was black and white once has now turned to grey

Prelude:

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Collapses:

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I Could Face It:

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